Who Me?

So I have been a bit quiet over recent weeks as I have been guided so figure some stuff out.

Last Sunday, I was gently made aware that I have been in my own business for twenty years. Some would say, and I told myself the same thing, that I have failed - that I have very little to show for the twenty years in business; that all it has brought me is a mountain of debt that I am having to clear; no sustainable earnings for my golden years and a body of work that has been created and developed across a wide range of subject matter and contexts that has appeared to be going nowhere!

For the last twenty years since opening my own business, I have been trying to figure out where and how what I Am and what I do, fits into the world. And whilst this post is mainly about me as a Soulpreneur, the insights feature in all aspects of who I Am.

The Business School 'guru's', their talk - niche markets; the 30 second elevator pitch; specialise in one thing; your focus is too wide; you confuse people with what your offering is, was overwhelming and confusing. How to bottle all of who I am into one thing was increasingly difficult and ever fibre of me rebelled against being put into a box.

The 3D model of the world wants us to compartmentalise ourselves into just one thing. And through being guided in figuring things our, I am also learning that there is a very different lens thought which to look at who we are and what we have to offer our world.

This same pressure can be said for all of the roles that we take on as women, as men - and the pressure is enormous. Forever on the treadmill, juggling priorities, for most of us never feeling that we are good enough amidst all of the role confusion and expectations that have expanded and increased with how many likes, followers, influences that we have on ourselves and others. The marketing machinery is full tilt in adding to the compartmentalised sense of who we are. We need to have a pigeon hole for each aspect of our lives.

Or do we?

I am sure that you can relate!

So back to the 'figuring stuff out'. The threads have been unravelling primarily around the work that I do - there are so many things that I can do and am very competent at. How do I convey to the world what real value I do have to offer in all of my roles and all of the aspects, gifts, talents and abilities that I have to offer?

We have been schooled and conditioned to define ourselves by what we do, not who we are; to grasp for the brass ring, to go for more, and more and more - in line with societal expectations and measures of success all the while yearning for something deeper and more meaningful.

The conundrum that I have come face to face with many times over these twenty years has been exactly that. Hours of contemplation, journalling and dialogue with those who get this have led me to a conclusion that works for me.

And in my view there is a thread that pulls through that is that golden seam of who we are and how we add value to ourselves and our world. We are Souls engaging in and hopefully enjoying the human experience in all aspects of our lives. So here are a few thoughts...

Firstly, I take me with me wherever I go - as a single mother, daughter, sister, friend, partner, lover, provider, business person, trainer, facilitator, storyteller, intuitive, strategist, change management expert, and the list goes on. How do I package myself?

Through the years, I have developed business vehicles, rebranded them, created product brands with amazing learning journeys; I have explored and developed as a mom, as a psychic, as a business owner in the process of creating multiple streams of income, all the while learning, growing, shedding false beliefs and the facade of who I thought others wanted and needed me from me. All this was about the doing.

Secondly, all of these facets of me should not be compartmentalised. For they are all aspects that make up me in my physical world. And, the only way that I can make sense of this is to bring them all together, to integrate them into who I Am, not what I do.

In business terms that may seem vague and confusing. What I have learned as I have yet again contemplated this 'confusion' is that I Am multidimensional - like the facets of a diamond. When we look at a diamond, we see the whole stone, not one facet at a time. I am learning to see myself as an integrated who - a Be-I-Ng coming into unity within myself instead of all these separate parts of me in the proverbial 'chimney stacks'.

Thirdly, I am a Spiritual Being having a physical experience - and this too has been polarised. That Spiritual part of me attempting to live and move and have my being in the heaviness of the 3D world experience. No wonder we feel discombobulated so much of the time. As a Spiritual Being, the way I navigate my way through my world is by aligning with the authenticity of who I Am and not what I do.

As a multidimensional Being, my Golden thread - my I Am - is as an Intuitive who is very, very good at my doing - that of process - seeing the golden threads that run through others, their lives and businesses. As this process expert, I take these gifts wherever I go. Therefore I am able to function and operate in any context - at home, with individual clients who seek counselling in order to make sense of themselves and their own multidimensionality; with other small business owners and entrepreneurs and with management teams in board rooms. This extends to the content and body of work that has been created over these twenty year; to my Spiritual life and community connection.

The relief in me seeing myself this way, is palpable. The pressure release is amazing and the freedom that comes from integrating all of these aspects of me into one judgementless multidimensional Being is incredible.

Isn't it time we all started to see ourselves this way - to give ourselves the permission to embrace all of who we are instead of through the eyes of what we do?

This is my wish for you too - to see yourself through the lens of your Soul Self - a remarkable multidimensional diamond with so much of you to offer yourself and your world.